the life i know

im so used to putting on a happy face that I've forgotten a lot about myself, i don't really know who i am anymore, i try to be the best person i can be but for some reason i never get there. i just feel like I'm not important to anyone, my self esteem has always to been an issue of mine but I've always been able to pick myself up off the ground when its hard, but it gets hard and harder each time. i want to feel accepted. even though I'm told i am and i seem to have so many friends i still feel empty inside. i know that i will be okay. because I've gone through so much already i can handle anything, i just wish i didn't think the way i do, i wish i could let people in, and learn to let certain things go. i think i would be a lot happier.